Last year I was sexually assaulted. He was my ex. We share a child together. We had dinner and talked about our child and our relationship in which I told him I had no intentions of going back to. He brought me home and followed me into my home after I told him he wasnt allowed inside. He came in anyway despite me trying to say that’s enough and close the door. I gave in and let him in because at the time I didn’t feel threatened. I figured we would argue a bit and he’d eventually leave and I’d come out of it with nothing more than a headache. That didn’t happen. He raped me. I was extremely verbal telling him no. Stop. I don’t want it. I tried fighting him off. Long story shorter- I pursued court. A jury found him guilty. And now his friends and family are commenting on news posts about the crime saying I’m evil and I made it all up just so I could take our son from him. The jury watched his interrogation video from police where he ADMITTED he assaulted me and even admitted that he begged me not to call the police. But I’m a liar? What’s worse is my own mother and sister are on his side. My mother has always been an alcoholic and abused pills and my sister is no better. They hate me because I refused to let my mother live with me and be near my kids and My sister who lived with me a short while because she got kicked out of her baby’s fathers home, I kicked out when I found out she was no better than our mother. After that they joined his family saying I’m mentally ill. I’m a child abuser. All of which I’ve had to prove false and HAVE proven false. And now they are helping his friends and family and new girlfriend organize a protest for the date of his sentencing. I’m tired. I want all of this to stop. I just want to be left alone and to stop being called evil when HE is the one who hurt ME and even admitted to doing so. They are saying I’m nothing more than a bitter ex who came up with a cruel plan to get him out of the picture so I could have our child to myself. Saying I’m giving women who “really have been abused” a bad name and making them seem unbelievable.

I just needed to vent for a second. If you pray, please send prayers. I just want to be free.. I didn’t even want to pursue charges but I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t and he did it to someone else.. but this is what I was fearful of. I was scared at first no one would believe me and once they did believe me I was scared of what his side would do to me as backlash..

I may be scared but I don’t regret pressing charges.

Update: They had no such protest at his sentencing. I read my victims statement, I cried, I was scared but I finally felt like I had control over what happened to me. I finally stopped feeling scared of him. After I spoke, He spoke briefly basically asking the judge to take it easy on him because should he be released he wished to “marry his fiancé and raise his son in a good Christian home”

The judge gave him 30 years. 20 years to serve and another 10 years supervised probation. Hell register as a sex offender. Never have contact with me. And should he screw up in any way he’ll go back to prison and serve whatever was left of those 10 years. The judge stood up for me. Calling him out for not taking responsibility for his actions and not being remorseful except to say what he’d lost and how him and his family never had a problem with me until it was HIM on the line and how besides what he’d actually done to me (sexual assault) that trying to take my child away on top of it was the worst thing he could try to do to me.

I am thankful this part is over. His family still won’t stop. Posting about me on social media claiming they “did everything for me” and how what I said was a lie. But it doesn’t hurt as much anymore. He is being held accountable for his actions and I finally feel safe. They can say what they want about me but it won’t change what happened. I am healing every day. It’s not easy with them still behaving the way they are but I trust in God things will get better.