I’m worried I’m now an alpha widow

Last year, after years of dating and not feeling chemistry toward anyone, I met a guy on a dating app,p. We talked daily for like 1.5 months, had amazing banter and then finally when we met in person, I felt attracted to him. He’s the first man I’ve enjoyed sex with. I loved our conversations, I never felt butterflies with him but I’m told that’s because I was so comfortable. I loved his humour, the way he thought about things, our great chats, his creativity.

However, over time, I realised he was low effort. He was broke and couldnt afford anything. He seemed quite feminine in the way he let me do everything and he couldn’t even give me the bare minimum. I felt like his mother at times as he always came to me for advice and support.

I actually lost attraction to him after 4 Months dating. I thought it was the end of the honeymoon period but I felt no excitement toward him at all, he was doing nothing romantic for me and I started to resent him. I started to find he smelt weird, I had to tell him to clean his teeth, he had sulks all the time about little things, he didn’t workout or eat healthy, dunno if he was doing it to make me not like him

He was actually the one that ended the relationship. Told me he only dated me because he was lonely.

It’s 6 months on, and I don’t feel any attraction to men anymore. I don’t usually have a libido unless I’m dating someone anyway. I’ve tried going on dates, but I just feel nothing. I even went on a date the other day, despite it being nice and friendly, I felt no spark even though he was an attractive man. He even went to kiss me at the end and I felt nothing, I wanted to run away lol