The twin dream I never got.

So I know there are lots of moms to be that wish to have twins on this group. I am one of them.

Have read all stories of how others got their twins, followed how the pregnancies felt in first trimester before that first scan. And like many of us, been disappointed twice to find out I wasn't carrying twins. And felt sad seeing everyone around us get the twins we so desire yet excitedly following their story as though they were some super being because to us, these mamas are.

Disclaimer. There is nothing wrong with this desire and we all hope you get your twins one day.

But today, am grateful I have no twins, especially for not getting them in the second pregnancy. having a toddler and a new born, sometimes my brain is about to burst. I can't imagine mixing another new born in this mix. It is not so rare that the toddler is having a melt down while the new born is screaming due to colic. It happens more often than I want that my 3 year old needs me because hey, he too is still too little for certain things, and yet my hands are full. add sickness to that mix and you got yourself a mama that is just so overwhelmed. In love but a moving zombie. Gash did I pray for twins. But God, new I wouldn't handle them. Am grateful for the prayers not answered.

Disclaimer 2: am happy for all twin mamas here and I know you all are rocking it and probably doing a much better job than I am. But on such days, I wonder how you do it.