Last time ever being pregnant

This is it. I am two weeks out from giving birth. What a bittersweet moment. I cannot wait to meet this little angel, but I also know this is our last child.

I never thought I would ever even have this opportunity. A year after TTC my husband and I sought fertility testing. Turns out I had severe endometriosis and needed surgery. Had surgery but no luck getting pregnant. I accepted the fact that I would never get pregnant. I mentally found closure and moved on.

3 years after surgery I was pregnant! It was surreal!

When our daughter was a year and a half we decided to try again. Shortly after we suffered a miscarriage. Then we were unable to conceive again for another 2 years.

This pregnancy has been rough. Diastasis Recti, umbilical hernia, Gestational diabetes, hemorrhoids, heartburn, nausea, headaches, protein in my urine, Strep B… the list goes on. All the signs that my body doesn’t like being pregnant. I hear it loud and clear. It took us YEARS to get to this point. I am grateful that I have had this opportunity, but it’s still hard to accept it’s our last.

I was the crazy lady who wanted 7 kids!!!! I wanted a BIG family. But here I am 35 and my body is done.

The chapter of fertility and pregnancy is coming to an end. I feel as if I need to mourn this all over again.