So today I had my first ultrasound, this is my second baby. My doctor, MIL, and I got onto the topic of me giving birth at the same hospital but this time I want natural(I was talked into induction and I didn’t listen to my gut that said don’t do it). I never wanted epidural but because of induction complications they decided it was best. My epidural completely wore off near the end to where I was able to feel everything before I started to push, I felt contractions and I had full feeling in my legs and lower half. When I say everything, I mean everything even down to the stitching me up. I was up walking and peeing once everyone left my room so about 45 minutes after. When I mentioned today not wanting to do that again that the epidural traumatized me and my other reasonings for going natural my MIL and doctor actually laughed at me and said “don’t worry you will change your mind” why doesn’t anyone believe in me?

Before this I believed in me and so does my fiancé. I don’t understand the discouragement and the need to laugh at me.