Can some of you maybe give me some insight! I feel like a winner and a loser at the same time....

My husband 38 yrs old is being medically discharged from the military due to vaccine injury. It really messed him up! He's permanently blind in one eye,has slurred speech and without medication has episodes of full body weakness and falls over every few minutes😔 Because of this I can no longer work outside the home and I'm his full time caregiver. We are in the process of the government paying me monthly to care for him,not sure how much I'll be getting paid yet. In the meantime, I quit work and had to pull 2 of my kids out of daycare because we can no longer afford it off of my husband's income alone.

With that being said,I've started babysitting and roughly make $600 weekly doing so. I'm able to be home,care for my 2 kids and husband.

With that being said,I feel like a loser. I'm 36 yrs old now only brining in $600 a week🙄 it's better than nothing but man does this suck. We aren't struggling financially, my husband collects $5000 a month disability and as mentioned I'll soon start receiving money as his caregiver on top of babysitting.

I just feel like this is a win lose scenario. I win because I'm home raising my kids,helping husband and babysitting on the side but I lose at only bringing $600 a week in right Now. Any advice or words of encouragement would be appreciated. I'm really just down in the dumps.....