Bf gave me r*pist vibes yesterday

TW: mention of rape and sexual assault

So I saw my bf yesterday (been together 4 years) and the whole day he just kept making comments or hints about him wanting to have sex because we haven’t in a while. I wanted sex too but I’m the type of person that if you keep asking for something or expect something from me I don’t wanna do it anymore🥴 I don’t want my sex life to feel “forced” or “scheduled” I just like spontaneous sex but he kept making comments about it then invited me over to his house once we were done with our plans and I said yeah. So we got there and immediately went to the bed, I was already VERY very tired and had a longggg day, I was LITERALLY falling asleep the whole car ride to his house that’s how tired I was. But I laid down in his bed because I was super tired and he of course just starts kissing me and taking my clothes and touching me down there and at this point I just wanted to get it over with so he would stop bugging me about it, he started eating me out first and was doing it kind of aggressive which does not feel good to me and he knows that, it was kinda hurting so all I did was ask him if he would not lick it as hard because it felt kinda sensitive since I was getting turned on, (that’s a thing right?) he then made a shitty comment about “why would I be sore down there unless I’ve been having sex with someone else) as he was eating me out basically accused me of sleeping with someone else while I’m literally in bed sleeping with him, that made me feel awkward and hurt my feelings because I’ve not touched anyone but him our whole relationship but I’m constantly accused of cheating. Then he wanted to be petty and started licking down there as LIGHTLY and slowly as he could like I could barely feel it so I told him “you can do it harder than that just not super hard” then he just stopped and tried to force his penis in my mouth to give him head. First of all why am I gonna give you oral when you just did a shitty half ass job at giving it to me? And why would I still be turned on after you made a comment about me cheating all because I was trying to tell you what I like, and then you being petty about it. I scoffed when he tried to get me to suck his penis and he heard me so he he gave me a crappy look like that made him mad so I told him I didn’t wanna do this anymore because I wasn’t in the mood or even turned on at that point then he grabbed me and yanked me towards him and tried to SHOVE his penis in me as I was pushing him off me. He wouldn’t stop shoving it until I loudly yelled at him and said “STOP” then he got mad and moved to the other side of the bed being mean saying stuff like “why did you even come over here” “you did this on purpose” “you know what you was doing you’ve just been teasing me all day” “you have to be seeing someone else” “you’re just not attracted to me anymore” etc etc etc. I told him it’s not that. I just was not turned on anymore after he acted like that in bed I was already tired and when he did that it was just the end of it for me and I wasn’t up for it no more. I just can’t believe he acted like that and made me feel like that. I put my clothes on, threw his clothes at him because he was still sitting on the bed naked when I came out of the bathroom as if he thought we was still gonna have sex at this point, I told him get dressed and take me home so he did. I cried the whole way home and all he said was “sorry.” He knows I have trauma with sex already as I’ve been assaulted, raped, etc as a kid so all that just really made me look at him differently. I felt like in that moment all he wanted me for was my body. He gave me the same feeling that all my rapists gave me and honestly it scared me. He has never acted like that in our relationship so I just don’t know what to do or if I should do anything about it. I love him so much he really hurt my feelings yesterday.