not pregnant

i’m 22 and wasn’t trying to get pregnant this young. however i felt like i was so i took a test that was positive. i took another, negative. i took another, positive. and the last two were negative. all over a span of 2 weeks. i went to the doctor yesterday for my yearly checkup and she verified that i am not pregnant using a blood test.

although i didn’t want to be pregnant at 22 and unmarried. i had felt so happy that i was. i started imagining life with this baby. and now i am so so sad. i want a baby. i’m sad that i’m not pregnant.

i feel stupid for feeling the way that i do because i wasn’t even pregnant. idk. i was just so happy thinking i was growing life. i feel dull.