I need some advice

My bf and I have not met each others friends and have not went to our friends parties yet.

My bf is a recovering addict. He is sober. So obviously he does not drink. I do drink. I have never done drugs.

Most of his friends are sober. They have holiday parties. He inivited me to a couple , but we never end up going. I would go if he really wanted me to, but honestly , I need alcohol in social situations like that. I am shy and have social anxiety. Alcohol makes me calm down and makes me more outgoing and fun at parties.

My friends and family drink at parties. So because of that, my bf doesn’t want to come to my friends parties.

So for a lot of holidays, we sit at home alone. We don’t want to go to parties without each other either.

Any advice???