So after three miscarriages and 4 daughters not only have I made it to 14weeks with this gift from god but I found out I’m having a boy! I’ve not told anyone I’m the only person that knows. My relationship isn’t the best and I’m just beyond confused as to what is the right thing to do. I have no one to talk to because he doesn’t allow me to talk to my sisters because they don’t get along and he feels they will bring negativity to our relationship and put thoughts in my head. I’m just stressed and worried to make the wrong choice and wonder if I over react to the things said and done between him and I. We argue and he’s go to is to tell me get my stuff and leave. I came into the relationship not telling g him I was married but I hadn’t been with my husband at the time for 4 years. He found out from one of my friends and well that’s when all heck broke out. It’s a long story but our relationship has been physical in the beginning it’s been a yr since he has put his hands on me but the hurtful things he says when he is mad amd then when I have to go see my kids I have to tell him every move and ask if it’s ok to take the kids to any different places and I have to have service on my phone so he can make sure I’m where I say I am. I can’t enjoy seeing my kids every two months because I’m stressed out scared I’m going to upset him by doing something wrong or not answering his texts fast enough. It’s just a lot to our relationship and it’s stressful but he is good to me and my kids when it comes to providing for us. I don’t mind to work and help but he won’t let me. He says we will be over if I get a job that’s not working with him. I just miss the old me the happy me, but I love him. I’m confused so bad and being pregnant makes things worse in my head. He is 13 yrs older then me.