So in July i had a miscarriage and out of spite of my situation and the anger i had i got on the depo shot, i was due for a shot nov 1 but i never went i knew i didnt want to be on the depo i think it was more of just my anger that the miscarriage happend and i didnt wanna risk the heartbreak again.. being on depo i have been bleeding since the end of september til now. i got on a pack of bc pills to hope it straightened everything out w my bleeding but it hasnt made much a difference..

i dont want to be on bc but at the same time im so scared to get pregnant right now. i am married and we have 3 children already and im still healing from the loss i would love to expand our family and try for a boy but with the heartbreak and being scared we also cant afford another, it wouldnt break the bank but itll be a stretch.. im just so torn on what to do.