Edit: thank you guys. Truly and wholeheartedly. I’ve spent a lot of time gaslighting myself within this relationship and did not realize the severity in which I was. I’m too scared to file a report still sadly as this happened in a tiny village where absolutely everyone would know if I did. I know some would support me but it’s having to face everyone looking at me the way some do that I can not face. For my rapist he has left the place thankfully and has gone off on a bender. He hasn’t been heard from in months on months. Karma exist🤷🏻‍♀️

For my ex he’s showed his colors now that we are separated. Or maybe I’m just more in tune to them now. I’ve got my things and he is still blocked. Wish the uttermost amounts of love and healing for all of you thank you