I’m struggling today. More than usual and I need help. My hours at work increased so i get home at 5 when it’s already dark so my workout schedule (my main outlet since i was a teenager has been lifting weights) has been severely interrupted. For example it’s Friday and I’ve worked out twice this week when i would usually have worked out at least 4-5 times . Anyways, I was driving home from work today and i just started crying like hardcore crying because the thoughts started racing. I have the most Vivid images of myself in bad situations like a horrific accident, a pole or something straight through my body, or being decapitated and leaving my 10 month old without a mama. When I’m walking down stairs I get vivid imagery of myself just falling on-top of my son and the image of his lifeless body there (i could not live with myself if anything like this ever happened) so i just hold him tighter and walk as carefully as i can. Idk what to do. I am already on Wellbutrin I’ve been on that since i was like 14 (I’m 23) I’ve been on almost everything for depression (this isn’t quite depression i can only explain it has anxiety) in my teenage years and i am breastfeeding so i don’t want anything that would mess with that or hurt him.