Does He Still Love Me?

Last night I had a hard episode and removed myself from bed and went to go cry on the couch until I fell asleep from exhaustion. For the past month or so I've been feeling alone even with my husband in the same room or next to me. I feel like he doesn't love me as much anymore. I put on about 50 pounds from having my son a year ago so I feel ugly and insecure. We tried doing gym days but my back is messed up from my epidural to the point where I was going to PT. I have depression and anxiety but don't take anything for it as the meds made me feel numb. I went through Post-partum depression for a few months as well which he didn't really understand. It just seems like he doesn't find me attractive or want to be affectionate with me and my love language is affection, so it's really breaking me. He's not a social person and has a hard time talking about his feelings and when I tried to address how I've been feeling, (which I had a hard time doing because I have a hard time being open as well thanks to past trauma) he said I was being silly and that he still loved me but he's tired all the time from the baby and we don't have time to be cute and cuddly. But what about the time when baby is asleep in the other room and we're on the couch and he's on the phone instead of doing something with me? I don't know what to do, but I feel like it's not a valid excuse as this is what life with children is like. But then I feel like I'm invalidating his feelings and I don't want to do that either. I just feel like he doesn't think about how his daily...choices(?) Impact me. I don't want to have to initiate all the affection. I'm thinking about seeking a therapist again. I just want opinions.