I am utterly at lost of words after testing positive for HSV2, I have always been as safe as possible and when I wasn’t I would always have sex with my ex maybe that’s where I messed up idk. I don’t have breakouts, sores or whatever it is that you would typically have maybe that’s why it went by so unnoticeable. I’ve never wanted kids but I’ve always wanted to be married and still do, now after testing positive not only do I feel like I have to limit myself to who I can and cannot date but I met a great guy that I haven’t even had sex with yet thank god but I don’t think it will go anywhere after these results.

Ive sat here 3 days or so feeling so filthy and just dirty and even questioning myself how did I get here? I asked my ex has he been tested recently and he told me he gets his blood work done by his Urologist I’m not done with nursing school just yet but I don’t believe urologist run blood work for STD’s. I really needed to let this out bc I still don’t feel great, I’m super depressed, I’m not eating or anything and I have to continue to live my life like it’s completely normal and it’s not at least not mentally anymore.