After years of wanting a relationship with him and settling for less wether that meant sleeping with him whenever it was convenient for him and hoping something would happen between us.8 months ago was a real eye opener I put my foot down and walked away from him .our last conversation I finally heard that wake up call and told myself you need to end everything he kept on talking bout how he was busy with other people that he had no time for me he would most likely see me in a month and only for 30 minutes .i was at the bottom of his prioritys like always but I was just done waiting I wasn’t gonna stick around anymore he could be with whoever he want he just had to count me out .I got out the car and walked thirteen minutes home deep inside I was happy and relieve but saddened at the same time .he tried calling me but I just turned off my phone.just to receive spam calls weeks later from him begging me to answer my phone and he how he wanted to talk which I ignored and blocked him from everything.I was tired of being a yess girl and not getting anything in return .Im mad at myself I wasted so many years trying to have him be my boyfriend while he was screwing so many other girl .I hate how I was so obsessed with him how every conversation I would manage to bring him up to many friends of mine .Many people told me he was a shitty person even his close friends were telling me I could do way better and I didn’t listen.I wish I would’ve earlier I messed up a lot of my personal friendships cause I would be hanging out with friends and drop everything and go to him which I was a shitty person to my friends for doing that. I messed myself esteem up to want to be the perfect girl for him straightening my natural curly hair only because he loved girl with straighten hair and would ask me to do it every single time he saw me and obey .I became insecure of my curly hair envious of girl with naturally straight hair .I was in the wrong mind set.I was complete idiotic person back then and I wish I would’ve left sooner

I’m enjoying getting back to my dance classes that make me feel empowered and going out meeting people .Going to concerts doing things I enjoy that make me feel amazing .I learned alot from that experience with that person and I learn not to belittle myself setting my boundaries and not setting for less .this help me gain value to myself .