Started going to AA and trying after having an almost death experience. I have a lot of trauma after everything he’s put me through. We haven’t been intimate or anything in six months. He begs for a kiss and my attention but I just feel like we’re friends now. We have two children together and they keep me busy since I’m SAHM. I’m not sure what to do. I’m doing ok but not sure I want to be married. I hate the thought of breaking up the family just because I fell out of love. If he actually does stay sober I might be willing to try for the kids. Just feel lost