My daughter is 3 months old, we tried for a year to get pregnant with her so she was very much wanted. I hoped to get back to work soon or pick up something part time but my SO says it isn’t worth paying a sitter for & we don’t have a family member who could watch her. I’m now pregnant again by accident.. My daughter doesn’t sleep much through the night it’s constant fussing, she used to sleep 10 hours when she was 1 month to 2 months old but not now..

Its hard being a SAHM. I always feel like a bad mom because I get lazy and tired of the non stop caring for another. I love it I love my daughter but it’s so tiring being at home all day everyday, caring for baby, doing laundry & dishes, the same routine over & over. We leave sometimes to run errands or go on a walk but it’s so boring at this point. It’s the same stuff all the time. :/ SO is amazing but we were all sick with Covid a few weeks back and then he had the flu this past week so it’s been non stop me taking care of everyone and not sleeping well. I’m early into my new pregnancy but it’s hard & it worries me. I miss taking care of myself and making money for myself (my SO will buy me what I need) but it isn’t the same as working for myself and being able to contribute financially or pay for my own self-care or gifts for my daughter for Christmas. I was almost ready to get back into the gym and get my muscle tone back. Now idk when I can, it will be awhile. I miss feeling attractive and feeling strong.. When I have 2 under 2 I worry for my mental health. Any advice? :/