I came on my cycle 10 minutes ago and I'm devastated. I was holding out hope because I've been nauseous and exhausted but deep down... I knew. Me and my other half broke up so there's no more trying. I feel like I lost everything I was working for the past 2 years. I'm greatful for the 2 kids I have and I'm trying not to focus on their all I'll ever have. Maybe I was being greedy? Selfish? Wanting to be pregnant again. Wanting another little someone I can watch grow and be amazed at the world with those brand new eyes. If we already broke up then having a child in between that wouldn't be the way to go right? It's for the best right? I want to feel that way. I wish it felt that way. I just feel empty somewhere in me. Just needed to vent somewhere.