For one he was only a ons. That happened years ago. When I got back in contact to tell him abt our child he was rude as hell but so many emotions came rushing back.

I do think I really liked him because I'm just hit with a rush of emotions. I really wanted him I think..but I knew he didn't want me ... he told me he didn't want to be in my life.

So I know it's no good. I know he's not good for me but I just wished we worked out.

Idk . I'm leaving it alone I just idk I'm just wondering how do I get past these feelings? I blocked him. I decided it's best to keep him out of my life if he's calling me bitches and shit.

I almost have tears in my.eyes bc I want him and I don't know why.