i have the urge to text my ex cuz i miss him even though he prolly talks shit abt me to his friends in their lil gc.

a little context: i loved him more than myself tbh which is bad ik and he ghosted me for a month and texted me back after that. he wanted to be friends cuz he didn’t want to lose me but i was soo delusional i fell for his trap. when i texted him he straight up told me that i’m not his friend and he’s never seen me as one which hurt. never texted him since and it’s been 2 weeks and i just wanna text him and i’m trying to fight the urge to :(