So I don’t know if i should be asking this in this group but I want to know.

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So a little backstory to what I’m about to ask-

So When I was 12, I had gone through human trafficking (stopped last year )

And was pretty much was selling myself for dr*gs. I was influenced by my ex best friend and also forced by her, I’ll call her S ( just for the record. )

So I’ve been trying to get out of the lifestyle since one of my rapist’s is on trial and has been for a year now. But This year I fell back into addiction. I met this dealer through my ex best friend S earlier this year. it’s been hard to stay away from the dr*gs because of stress and all but 3 weeks ago I heard the dealer was in town and I had bad cravings that I could not handle. So he came to pick me up. I was sitting in the car and gave him money. A couple minutes after I gave him the money he said “ why don’t you just give head and I’ll give it to you for free?” Now my desperate ass kinda agreed so I went on with it, ( he also took my money but I got ripped off.) ….

He ended up doing something to me that I didn’t expect to happen nor agreed too…

But anyways. Since I have done things for dr*gs and got raped and sexually assaulted several times, my question is what did I do??? I’m still rapping my head around what happened and trying to figure out if I slipped back into what I used to do when I was 12/13… should I tell someone??? I’m so fucking ashamed of myself and scared… So if someone can help me out here that would be appreciated.

Please don’t hate on me though, I know it is a stupid question. I’m 14 now btw. 15 in 2 months. Please be kind.