I feel gutted.

Only 4 weeks, not really a "baby" yet right? But it doesnt seem to matter. I couldn't stop crying all day yesterday.

Third day of bleeding now this morning, confirmed no more line today, my sweet little bub is no more. Wasn't strong enough..

I shouldn't have doubted if I wanted you .. I am so sorry. It wouldn't have been too much.. I already loved you.. I'm sorry little bean. I wish you could have come and met your siblings. I had already visualized you all together in my head.

What do I do now..

I guess this Christmas present was rescinded..