Im 20w today and I woke up scared and overwhelmed. This is my second pregnancy and I feel so unprepared only because with my first I started buying everything I needed I didn’t wait for a baby shower or anything like that. I also spent a lot of money that I didn’t need to spend especially considering she grew out her diapers in clothes extremely fast and I still had unopened boxes of diaper and clothes with tags still on them. This pregnancy money is a lil tight I’m trying to save to move in to my place but everything don’t happen when u want it to. I’m staying with my sister so I feel the pressure of urgency even though there’s no real rush but I’m rushing. I want to feel in control and overjoyed with this pregnancy but I haven’t felt any of that my brothers gf is pregnant and she’s due the end of this month so there will be two babies if I don’t move soon which is probably why I just feel blah towards my pregnancy and ik I shouldn’t feel that way but it’s hard. I’m the baby of the family so nobody is ever happy or excited when things happen for me so I tend to keep things to myself for example only part of my family knows I’m pregnant because they just talk ish about me and I don’t want to deal with that this pregnancy. I feel like My family should be happy regardless especially considering we lost two family members last year around the holidays idk I just wish I can be more excited about everything and my family be happy for me for once like sincere happiness like I am for them

When they have good or even great news. Idk hopefully something’s change soon.