I had my second miscarriage in November, I was 6-7 weeks. The first one July before last.. found out a few days ago I am pregnant again.. these tests are so vibrant and the lines are darker than I’ve ever had them. And I am so afraid to feel hopeful. So afraid to let myself get excited. I had given up for the time being, decided that my step daughter was all my husband and I needed for the foreseeable future, and tried to block out the thoughts and what ifs if I am not able to have a child of my own.. and then I took the tests.. part of me wishes I hadn’t. I mean I’m glad to finally find out why my boobs have been so terribly sore and why I’m nauseous almost daily.. but I am so afraid to be excited about this.. I’m only 23, people my age around me are having baby after baby and making it seem so easy.. and I’m so happy for them, even when it’s hard to be happy for them. How do you guys do it? Someone please direct me, I need somewhere else to put this fear. Should the darker more vibrant lines make me feel better? Could it have been my antidepressants causing the miscarriages? Could it be that simple? I’m trying my best to ignore the whole thing until I see if I can get through the first trimester.