Just got the news… My blood work came back. I am “Not Pregnant”. Most devastating news of the new year for us. My husband was just as speechless as me. I believe he’s running out of words to say to me. I am running out words to say.😩 The numb yet empty feeling. Has for sure taken over. The hope we had for this cycle is lost. I want to cry sooo bad. But I have no tears 😢to come out. I don’t know why this has been so difficult for us. I feel like giving up on the #TTC JOURNEY. Then I remember the joy of children. I am a aunt to my nieces & nephews. I love them all! I can’t help to wonder. When is it my turn to be actual mother in psychical sense. I am angel👼🏼 mommy to my 2 angel babies in heaven.🥺 Every single day, hour, minutes, seconds. I miss my babies!!!

I don’t know why this happens. Or what lesson this is to learn from. This is pure torture at times. I just want my own children. To have a healthy & successful pregnancy. One day soon enough. I pray God heals my wounded heart everyday. I need all my prayer warriors. Please say a prayer for me. Thank you in advance.❤️