Need some reassurance

I’m struggling, so please be nice. I experienced a chemical last cycle and just found out I’m pregnant again (4w1d). I’m having a hard time being excited because I’m afraid every time I go to the bathroom I’m going to start bleeding and lose the pregnancy again. My OB won’t do blood levels since I have a pretty benign history. I want to tell my best friends, but I don’t want to go through the whole I’m pregnant, jk now I’m not again. I feel like my tests aren’t getting that dark and I have little to no symptoms.

This is my test from yesterday FMU:

This is my test from today FMU:

Help me get out of my head. Who experienced a successful pregnancy immediately after a chemical?