I dated my ex boyfriend for about 4 years. From when I was 18 to when I was 22. He was there for a large chunk of my life. My first boyfriend. He because my life very quickly but he also began to be manipulative and toxic and controlling and so many other things too. I was secluded from my friends and he began to pull me away from my family as well. I broke up with him through text, about 4 or 5 months ago. I was with him one day and not the next and have not seen or spoken a word to him since. I’m still dealing with the trauma of the unhealthy aspects of the relationship but for the first time since I broke up with him, I am struggling. I keep thinking about how he is and what he’s up to and I can’t help but wonder if he thinks about me too. He was not a good boyfriend though. Cheated, never kept a job, and relied on me and my money to support us and our dog and cat. I knew it had to be done. It’s still hard and I’m struggling how to move forward, and I was just curious if anybody had any advice how to manage NOT reaching out and getting past the difficult times when they returned again 😅