There’s no hope for this, right?

I’ve been crazy in love with this guy for a long time. He is one of my best friends. Lately it was feeling like things may be happening between us. For like a month, we were hanging out 1-2 times a week… watching movies together and sometimes he had his arm around me, he invited me to spend Christmas with his family and to a New Year’s party with his friends. Nothing “happened” but it felt like it was well on its way. Now suddenly out of nowhere he is saying he’ll “let me know” when we can hang out next (it’s been a week) because he’s not feeling well. Which I do believe he’s not feeling well, he has chronic illness. But generally the last month, he’d see me anyway even when he didn’t feel well, and we’d just watch a movie.

Then, we have this conversation. “A” is his ex girlfriend, who broke up with him over a year ago.

Him: A and I were supposed to talk last night, but She kind of blew me off and won't specifically schedule a time to talk to me so I'm a little annoyed

Me: Oh no, I'm sorry ☹️ why were you supposed to talk? Just to catch up, or anything in particular?

Him: Just catch up and stuff, it's more just I feel like she doesn't want to schedule time to talk and it's always a on the fly thing and I just feel like a second option sometimes. It's not a big deal but it's hard when I have little going on, part of me feels like I'm just waiting around

Me: Yeah, I get that. I'm so sorry she undervalues you and treats you that way. You deserve someone who sees how incredible you are and puts you first.

Him: I appreciate it 😌

Like, could I be any more obvious? Could he be anymore thick about the irony of this situation? I don’t know what to make of this. I really thought he was into me, and now I just feel like I’m pathetically pining for him. I don’t know what changed.

Be honest, is there any hope for me here? Do I even text him back? Is it possible he really IS that oblivious and doesn’t see that I’m in love with him? Or is this him being “nice” and making it clear that we’re just friends?

More context: we’ve been friends for over 7 years, and the night we met we actually made out, lol. We “almost” dated but because of circumstances it didn’t work out. We stayed friends all this time but I have had feelings for him on and off for the past 7 years. This isn’t just some guy. This is THE guy, for me. I feel so beyond broken. He’s always been “it” for me. I just want him to choose me.