My siblings and I had a meeting with my mom and her husband due to the fact that her husband doesn’t want to work. Her husband has seizures but it’s manageable with medication. The goal was to come up with a plan as to how he can safely work. We currently live in a hotel and this situation could have been avoided if he worked earlier. But he then explained to us that he doesn’t want to work here because he wants to be in Florida. I think it’s really selfish that he’s refusing to work while we’re slaving away getting things done all because my mother won’t allow him to live in Florida. It doesn’t stop there, ever since he came to live with us he’s barely lifted a finger, he just sits there and watches TV.

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Anyways, towards the end of the meeting he promised to find a job here in Georgia, we were happy, we was finally going to get help from another adult to help pay the bills, or so I thought. The meeting was last month and he’s still doing the watch tv, wait for someone to bring him food, routine. Fast forward, I tell my mom we need another meeting so we can figure out how he can be involved in helping out where he can. She says no, her head can’t take it, something she says to get herself out of confrontation, I say fine, I’ll just talk to him then. She immediately starts giving excuses as to why he can’t have a meeting.

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I tell her that I’m moving out soon because I don’t know how I’m going to help everyone if I don’t remove myself from our situation. She immediately turns into her manipulative self, says how she knows things about my siblings and I but will spare us by not saying it in front of everyone, then changes my words and says “She said she’s trying to get away from my stress”, My siblings defended me saying that I never said that. She then gets upset because her manipulative tactics aren’t working anymore.

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Lol I literally told her I had bipolar disorder and she continued to make everything about her, she didn’t care, she continued to say how she’s stressed, how she’s this, how she’s that, as if I’M not stressed at 20 taking care of myself, helping her with the bills, taking care of my younger siblings, AND trying to figure out how to escape. So you can ONLY imagine how the stress is affecting my bipolar symptoms. This all happened last night and yes I was pissed. I even felt suicidal because I couldn’t stand how she’s coddled her husband so much to the point that he feels comfortable not doing a thing. It’s affecting all of us, especially my little brothers.

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I’m just so tired, so tired. This is not even a fraction of everything that’s happened. I’m not having any more meetings, nothing will change so what’s the point. I will simply do what I have to do to get out then get my siblings out. Am I wrong for being pissed?