Husband’s old e-Mails

Through our iCloud I’m able to see some saved e-Mails from my Husband to his ex and a couple of her replies after she dumped him. He probably has forgotten they are there and I’ve read them when we were dating. And he had gone to therapy, telling her it’s done him good.

What triggers me this time around is he wrote to her about how she didn’t fight for their relationship and gave up on him so fast. (They had an argument and he walked out.) That relationship needs 2 people to make it work.

Ironic, how these words mirror my philosophy on relationships but when I say these things to him when we hit a rough patch, he dismisses me and says I’m dramatic!

I’m angry, I’m hurt and I feel like he’s pouring his heart out to his ex but I don’t get that he has that passion and desire to fight for me in that way.

When we argue he just walks away and never apologize when he’s wrong, he just pretends like nothing happened. When I tell him my needs he says he’s fed up and maybe I need to find someone else. The thing is, he silently changes things to be better. But he never acknowledges it or talks about it.

I want to send a copy of his old e-Mails as a reminder that I am in his position he once was. But I’m not sure if this is a good idea!! Or is it?

I have sat there talking about dynamics of our relationships and I feel like he’s acting like he doesn’t know what I’m talking about. I’m just confused and I really am questioning if he is in love with me. Because I’m crazy about him but somehow I feel like I’m more invested.