Just venting/feeling defeated/ preterm labor & sickness

This is my last pregnancy. I knew that I wanted this baby (my third) to be the last from the very beginning.

I wanted to enjoy this pregnancy and just soak it all up, but it has been full of issues from the beginning.

Morning sickness? Way worse than my other two.

Migraines all throughout the first trimester. I would just lay in bed and cry.

Gestational diabetes.

Bulging disc in my back, along with sciatic joint issues that make getting out of bed, walking, or doing normal activities extremely painful.

Almost 2 weeks ago (at 32 weeks), I started feeling extremely tired and sleepy. By 33 weeks, I started having contractions. They checked me out, and sent me home. The next day, I began running a fever with no other symptoms- just sleepy. I couldn’t get the fever to break, so I called my OB. They were a pain to get in touch with and didn’t call back for a couple days.

When they did finally take my call, they sent me to the hospital to be checked out. Lots of blood work, but they said I was fine. I started having contractions again while at the hospital, every 8 minutes. Within a couple hours, they were every 4 minutes. They admitted, started me on continuous fluids and penicillin in my IV. Still… said nothing was wrong.

They finally got my labor to stop, but gave me steroid shots to mature baby’s lungs. I had to stay 2 nights in the hospital. I didn’t run any fever during those 2 nights, but the same afternoon that I came home, my fever came back.

I followed up with my OB, he said it was not pregnancy related and I could go to the ER if I wanted to but everything looked completely normal.

I called my sister, a NP, and she told me to come into her office. Within 15 minutes, she did lab work and had a diagnosis…. I have both mono and H Pylori. I have no clue how I got either of those. But, essentially the mono will have to run its course and she didn’t feel comfortable prescribing me anything for the H Pylori, but she contacted my OB and talked to them to see if they would.

They won’t prescribe me anything until baby is born.

I’m on bed rest, which is a joke with two little ones at home. All I want is to enjoy the last few weeks of my last pregnancy, and I’m miserable. I’m constantly in pain all over my body, trying to keep my fever down, and trying to stay away from my kids and husband so they don’t get sick.

It’s crazy that I had two completely normal, healthy pregnancies, but this one is so different. The doctor had a goal of me making it to 35 weeks, which is only a few days away. After that, they feel confident that with the steroids and size that she is, that she would be okay.

I know this is long and a lot of “poor, pitiful me”, but I just feel so down and defeated. 😩