My ex physically assaulted me about 3 weeks ago and so I kicked him out of my apartment that he was living in. At the time of the assault I was scared for my life and I felt that way for a few days after but I quickly returned to caring very deeply for him. When I finally went back home I became very sad and I missed him so much. I didn’t want to move anything in the room that we lived together because it reminds me of him eventually I moved a few things but I regret it and I can’t bring myself to move anymore things, even his slippers or the clock he hung on the wall that I’ve always hated. Everyday I struggle with not telling him to come home. I miss him so much even though I wasn’t happy in the relationship and on top of that I know that what happened will happen again and I could die. So I don’t but it’s so hard.