Bf doesn’t want to see me, we’ve been arguing and I feel pushed away

So me and my boyfriend have been arguing lately had a big argument but we made up. I apologized bc it was due to me not being good on communication and he’s big on it. I’ve always had a hard time expressing myself from when I was a child. After arguments he wants his space, but usually it’s for a day. Then we are back right under each other. But this time isn’t the case. We’re still talking & texting, but I want to see him. That’s how i make up. We saw each other last wk but it was really nothing but arguments. I saw him Friday and that’s when I went and apologized and I was only there for 30 mins, I asked if he wanted to spend time w each other, he said he needed time to decompress. So I’m giving him his space but I really miss him. I don’t want to sound desperate I just want him to know that I’m here and I’m trying to be vulnerable and communicate my emotions. He walked about him going to my nephews basketball game tmr and me coming his game on Wednesday that he coaches for. But I just feel it’s not genuine.

Here’s just a lil from our convo thinking he would get the hint or want me over but NOPE 😂😂