Stressful Marriage

To make a LONG story short. My husband and I been together since we were 18 & 19.

Now 28 & 29. We agreed to move in together & we agreed things would be 50-50 & things would be better bc we were both living with our mothers.

We moved in together 2018. & at first it was nice bc we went 50/50. He paid for things, I paid for things. Then I got pregnant & had my child within a year of living on my own with my husband.

Caused a lot of stress. With little to no support from both families, work was absolutely awful. He worked over night and I worked a 8am - 5pm job.

He ended up quitting bc he couldn’t take working overnight & watching the child in the day. Which I get that! (Day care is WAY too expensive for us)

We began arguing a lot, things just kind of fell apart & we lost our “spark”

Now fast forward to 2023, I work from home & he works in 7am -3p.

I watch my child while working and it’s super stressful so he ends up staying home or coming home early which means his checks are alot less. But even when I tell him it’s okay, he will still leave early. I literally pay almost everything by myself.

At this point it feels like this marriage & family life style is just a job & there’s no enjoyment in it. we don’t go on dates. He doesn’t do nice things for me. He cooks and he does help clean but idk. Just feels like the SPARK is gone. He doesn’t have any family on his side to help watch our kid & I don’t have too many ppl on my end. We don’t have sex like we use to. It just feels BLAND. When I told him I feel alone & I just rather be alone, be invalidated what I said & carried on like nothing happened. What do I do? I’m 28 and feel like we’re living a life like 50-60 year olds

I kind of just want to leave. 😞