This is so silly... but don't have many people to talk to about this. I am doing a photoshoot this month.

Im getting divorced and feel... weak... a lot of the time. I was told that I should do things to empower me and I've always wanted to do a high concept photo shoot, but im no model so it never made sense/I didn't get the opportunity.

Now I have my own money and I dont have to manage keeping up appearances of the house, spending much of it on useful things or saving it so he has enough to do what he wants.... I paid a photographer (a really good one) and we are doing an ocean goddess/sea siren themed shoot where I will be in a fluffy ballgown on the beach with a crown and everything.

I feel kind of stupid as my family is pretty practical and will say its unnecessary and I should have saved my money instead.... but im really excited and don't know who to talk to about this.

Here is the beach I will be going to (I live on the coast)

Ive heard of people doing boudoir to get their power back but I don't want that. Im a fantasy nerd and I want to not just feel beautiful.... but also powerful. I want photos I can post too and I'm not one that would post photos of my butt.

Im not doing this for the posting reason, but if im doing it anyway. I want photos i can use as a profile photo if I want so I look at it every day and say "yeah. I did that."

Is it ridiculous and stupid.

EDIT: Yall are so nice. Okay ill post pics here and make another post when I get the photos back. My photoshoot at the 12th but with editing and whatnot I don't expect to receive photos until mid March probably. Typical editing is 4-6 weeks, I believe. If I remember from my wedding.

UPDATE: My dress just arrived in the mail and I am so VERY excited. This picture is weird because my dog likes grabbing tulle and I wanted to protect the skirt (its turned in side out with only the very top turned right side out). But even only having seen this much makes me so VERY excited.