We are offered them as a gift so completely free. With my first I have only ONE picture of her on my chest and nothing after that. This time I want these memories so badly and it’s our rainbow baby. They wouldn’t be shooting any vaginal shots of course just reaction, first time baby on my chest, first time dada holds him, and first 24 hour photos.

Fiancé’s reasoning:

- says “birth isn’t pretty”

- says “it’s too crammed in the room”

- says “would be easier if it’s you and I only”

My reasoning:

- memories

- it’s our last baby and something I’ve always wanted yet never had the money to do so and we have a chance now

- birth IS beautiful and pretty

- i feel it’s something I’d truly miss out on and while I understand it’s happening to him too, it’s my experience as well and my last experience