Cannot seem to change my mindset and grow mentally

I have extreme guilt. I pushed for my family to move to another country so we could afford a house and start a better life, thinking I could find a great job. My husband and I both have degrees and all I can find are $10/hour jobs and even those are lucrative. It’s been a struggle to say the least. I’ve been having full mental breakdowns for months now and chronic stress,anxiety and depression. I try to function normally for my son but I just had another breakdown and was so angry I hit my hand against the wall as hard as I could. Now it hurts a bit. I also cried and my husband was there but I’m so disappointed he can’t find a job and we are struggling massively financially. We can’t just up and move back home to the US because of my husband’s immigration situation which will take years. So we are stuck. I love him, he is the ABSOLUTE best but I cannot see outside of myself and our shit situation. I want mental help but cannot afford it since we can barely pay for groceries. We are eating into our savings and I have 3 jobs and am trying to take Technology courses and so is my husband but we don’t have anyone that lives near us that can help watch our son and daycare is too expensive. I’m just trying to think better and remember that we will persist. It’s really rough and I didn’t think our lives would be like this. I feel extremely alone. I am so desperate i have thought of talking to men for money