I’m literally panicking so don’t you dare say anything mean. Please just help me…

Ok so here’s the thing. I have a lot of sexual trauma. I’ve been sexually assaulted a few times in my life and growing up we weren’t supposed to talk about it. I’m a little bit of a sexual mess but therapy is helping. My husband was aware of all of this when we met and for the most part has been understanding and takes things slow when I need to…. But. A few months ago I had a suspicion he was cheating and even so did his mom (looong story but basically just lying about where he was going and his work hours did not add up at all.) We confronted him about it and he vehemently denied it. My best friend was even convinced… I eventually let it go because I am pregnant and hormonal and exhausted.

Fast forward to today. I am checking on a sleep sac order and I see he ordered a vibrator. We don’t use sex toys mainly because of me. I’m a chicken because of past trauma. So I’ll admit our sex life can be pretty vanilla sometimes. I was also on pelvic rest for 4 months so I had to just get him off when he needed it. But a vibrator. He didn’t ask me about it or anything it was ordered and scheduled for Monday delivery. I look at the calendar…. He is leaving on Tuesday. Valentine’s Day. For an “all day work trip”….. I ask him about the vibrator and he kind of pauses and says sorry it made me uncomfortable and cancelled it.

Is this another red flag? Am I overreacting? What do I do? (Remember this is a small piece to a bigger story that happened a few months ago that is way too long to type out)