Ttc #4

I am so far out of my element. I've never had the displeasure and struggle so many women experience and I sympathize!! I tracked my ovulation this cycle and did not get a positive test this morning. Is it still too early to tell? My boyfriend said if it doesn't happen this month, he wants to wait a year before trying again and I should start my birth control again. 😭 We had a chemical loss last month, but he's not got any children of his own. I want this so bad that I feel guilty that I want it more than him. Insight??