Please help.

TW// MENTIONS LOSS

I love my fiancé so much, he is my best friend but lately I’ve been wondering if we are really meant to be together. We tried to have a baby for two years, miscarried twice, then found out we were pregnant last February only for our son to die unexpectedly shortly after birth. Im four months pp and we’ve been trying basically since our son passed. I had my first period 1/23 and I just started spotting today almost a week earlier than af is supposed to start. I’m so disappointed in myself, in my body.

I’m having a hard time believing we are supposed to be together because why does so much bad stuff keep happening to us? I don’t know if I’m looking for advice or just needing to vent but anything is appreciated.