Back to back ectopics

Barbara
Doctor just called. And it's looking like I might be experiencing back to back ectopic pregnancies. I want to die. I don't understand why it's so hard for me to stay pregnant. I pray and do the right things and I can't seem to get it right. It's no unfair. Every time we get our hopes up and we just crumble. I hate it. I hate it so much.