Trying my hardest to be happy

My husband and I have been trying for 8 months now we conceived in September but miscarried in October. I have 8 friends who have either had babies or gotten pregnant in the last 6 months and I'm slowly dying inside. I wish it was me so badly but I just want to give up - I'm tired of bding every second day I'm annoyed with OPKs I just want it to happen without all these things but I can't help thinking about it 24/7 it controls my life. 
​This month I'm starting fresh and I'm going to be happy for the life I have