Thought I was over it

Florence • Expecting baby #1 Dec 23!
So AF is due tomorrow and I have decided to test on Thurs. if she is a no show. I have a feeling that I might be pregnant (combination of symptoms) and am actually finding myself feeling really, really scared of a BFP! I miscarried a year ago and thought I was over it but am now realizing I am still really afraid of going through that again. I have to toughen up. It's time to try again. I just didn't see this fear coming.