You're kidding right

I've been trying to really relax while TTC the last 2 months and not get so upset when it doesn't happen. 
​Yesterday one of my best friends tells me she is pregnant. Punch to the gut. They weren't even trying, they were actually going to wait a year. 
I know I should be grateful for all I have. Blah blah. Lol 
​Praying this month is the month!