Torturing :'(

Last month when I got one week late period i had so many sympmtom like nauseous, cramps, backache, exhausted, gassy and etc. then i had my period after a week late. This month i dont have any sympmtom at all. Just a cramps after 6dpo then the cramps gone till now. I hate this. I hate waiting and get nothing. AF due on 1st may and i hope it never come! This all thing is like torturing my feeling. And i really hope this month is my month. Feeling really down. DH try to comfort me but its hard to no think about it :(