Why are men confusing

I was dating a guy for a couple of months. Got on the pill, and I thought everything was going great. Then all of a sudden, he comes with I wanna run something by you. He says I don't know where this is going but I want it to remain friends. I'm not good at relationships. He says we can still be friends and hang out. My response was I'm not a friends with benefits kind of girl. Then he says you can still call me, I said no you can. But why deep down am I sad and secretly wanting him to call! Call me crazy I know!