Mixed feelings.

My husband and I decided to go off birth control because it affected me hormonal really bad in many different ways including not wanting sex at all. We added glow to track ovulation and avoid that week. We can't use condoms as they bother both of us.  We have been off birth control for months and it has really helped us a lot on our relationship. We also decided if we did get pregnant that's awesome as we know it's all in Gods timing not ours. We know we want more kids. Well a week ago I had a positive pregnancy test. Since then I have been really thinking about it and wondering how we are going to do this. We have some surprise bills come up that set us back in our other bills. I keep thinking about the hospital bill and what that is going to cost. With my other two I was on Medicaid and didn't pay anything. Now we have private insurance. What if we can't afford the bill after delivery? What about if I have to go in while pg? I am not even sure what our insurance covers. Then add our really tiny car. I don't think it will fit 3 car seats. Although my son is big/old enough for a high back booster. Then I think maybe just the 2 kids was enough. Now we are changing their whole world. My husband is really excited (I think deep down he was hoping and trying for baby number three) but me on the other has am not as excited as I was for the other two. I try to be and I feel bad for not being but I keep getting all these fears.