I feel like rambling sorry!

These past couple of months have been the first for me, with actually trying to conceive. Considering I've been pregnant 3 times in my life (I have only one child the other two were healthy as well but I won't get into how young and stupid I was) I know I'm fertile. There is no denying that. But in actually trying to conceive I've realized this is causing me to overthink everything, as opposed to before when I wasn't over analyzing the way my boobs hurt or the way my cm looks after I poop. The TWW's are the worst, I can't tell you how many times I've looked up implantation bleeding in one day. Or how many apps I have on my phone monitoring my moods or who else in the community is constipated that day besides me. This is hard, but at the same time I feel like in doing this, it'll be completely worth it in the end when I finally get a bfp and I can show my love the magical pee stick that says we finally friggin did it!