Everytime I'm about to test I put so much expectation into it, and even if I convince myself that this time it's gonna be different and I'll be more "relaxed" about it, I get crushed every time I see that lonely line and nothing fills the void! I know I should be glad I already have a daughter but if she starts a sentence -"when I have a little baby brother or sister..." my heart breaks at the thought I might not be able to give that to her...I just tell her we have to ask God to send a baby to us and she sometimes asks me if the baby is already inside my tummy...it's so hard to explain to an almost 4 year-old. It really makes it harder!